About My Blog

Hello!

Welcome to my blog where I will be writing posts surrounding the themes of decision-making, (dis)connections to self and others, the desire to write and be seen, as well as any other topic that moves me in some way.

I created this site as an outlet for the creative energy and existential anxiety I have been feeling since graduating college and facing the terror/joy that comes with the power to choose.

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I want to acknowledge the discomfort I feel around making myself visible to others, especially through my writing. Although writing has always been one of the central ways that I create meaning, I have always done it privately. I feel an awkwardness around sharing my writing with others...it feels as if I am putting them into a weird position where I am forcing them to see me and compliment me.

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I also often ask myself the questions: why should anyone care what I have to say? how is me writing helping anyone else? is this not the most self-absorbed thing I could be doing?

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I sometimes get a feeling of madness when I write. I think it has something to do with making my consciousness visible to others and to myself. Yet I also feel the most connected to myself and to the world around me when I write.

The writing process makes me observe the world with a sense of wonderment and allows me to play with my consciousness in the way that makes me feel most alive. Something I realized recently is how important it is to make yourself understood to others in order to understand yourself, which is one of the central impulses of this blog.

 

Thanks for reading and engaging with my posts.

-Emily